It’s just a small project, right? I mean, I’m just on the brink of re-vamping my life for the umpteenth time. How hard can it be? Last week I was informed that the show is closing. The general manager of that piece of musical genius that we’ve all been struggling to work through for the last 5 months will be closing in three weeks. It was actually quite a nice gesture of him to fly out from New York City to the depths of the asshole of America, Detroit, and tell us....Oh, and on the opening performance of our new leading lady. The level of tact that has, once again, been displayed is actually amazing. I am neither shocked, nor appalled anymore. Those have worn off, I believe, in Houston. Or maybe it was in Chelsea Studios.
So, we’re heading back to New York. I have a great deal to work on. Sooner than I’d planned, I’ll be working on a few things. Some are entitled “Broadway ’08”. Others have catchy little names like “Agent ’08”. I think you catch my drift. Up until recently I had added “Stop Sleeping With The Wrong Men ’08”, but I think that mistake may stick around a little while longer just to help me get through the rougher times ahead. I must admit, the thought of going to an audition right now has an interesting taste to it. I haven’t done it religiously, let alone as an Equity performer, in some time. I have a new energy behind much of what I want to accomplish. This energy is very different from that which I’d possessed at this time last year. I was taking a job to simply “pay the bills”. It was a job that I knew I would detest within a matter of a few weeks, which rang completely true. I put this job on a brief timeline. I told myself..... “Self, you are only going to be here until August.” You see, come August, I just knew that I’d end up with my Equity card, a new show (preferably a tour), and a new energy surge in my career outlook. They all happened almost exactly as I had planned. I put that energy into the universe in whichever way I could, and it came to fruition.
I am not one to believe that we are all simply magicians lying in state waiting for our true power to rise from it’s sleep and open all previously unlocked doors as if it were the simplest thing in the world. I do believe we have some power, but other factors must come into play as well. We cannot believe the old adage of the pre-fame movie star writing himself a check made out for a million dollars when he was neither famous, nor able to cash it, only to end up, shortly down the road, able to cash that very same check because he simply “put that energy into the universe”. I think if this magic did exist on the surface, there would be several more millionaires in the world, and I would be one of them.
Living life, to the best of our abilities, from the center or core of peace, where there are no selfish desires put out into the aforementioned universe, then we may be able to tap into, at least, a beginning portion of that magic. From there, I firmly believe, most anything could be possible. This is a large part of my current plan. There is a strange, new feeling of peace and positivity ruling over this “energy”, which makes me believe that I may be on the right track. I can’t wait to get back to my formerly bleak environment and create my new, bright world, or view on the world, through my new power. It may not be sure-fire, but, again, we’re dealing with a power I’ve been too afraid to use before.
